"No. No, it is not good, at all."

An angel is obedience. Without that certainty, Castiel feels as if he has no solid ground under his feet.

Add to that a loss of trust in his orders, and he might as well be spinning through space.

"For the first time, I feel..."

It's difficult to even articulate. Even with all he's seen and done--even at the End of the Universe--he'd still been following orders after a fashion.